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The same midnight
Monday, 13 November 2017 | 02:01 | 0 comment(s)

It's 1.47am and yet I'm still awake and getting my hands on some works. I do...have many commitment this semester.

My english sucks *insert crying emoji*

Dah dua semester aku amik semua subject arab so I got not times to improve my english la. I can only google few words. Arab ni dah macam second language. 

Dari tadi aku silap type nak type noktah (.) tertype Shift+>  ni cara nak type noktah in arabic. 

Rasa cam split identity asyik confuse bahasa ni. All those reading, speaking and listening arabic eventually got me messed up.

But I know in the end bila habis belajar I'll be missing all these moments cause I won't get this twice.

People say language connecting people, but in my situation language is like a barrier to my messages. All those grammar police, nahu and sorf police and judmental person, pls stop doing police thingy.

Mistakes are made to be learned.

Goodnight.
Fav song ATM?
Sunday, 12 November 2017 | 00:27 | 0 comment(s)


I don't actually get this question but I'm just keeping it here just in case my another 10 years self will miss the song I've been repeating all day.

All right first of all A Little Braver by New Empire


Okay I got VERY addicted to this song and I gotta admit I play this song in my car too padahal orang lain pasang lagu rock kalau drive. But I'm the driver and I get to choose the song that I want.

And...this fella you're reading rn also playing the same song hehe.

Alright the second one is Please Don't Say You Love Me by Gabrielle Aplin.


Pst don't blame my type of jam I just can't control the sentimental side of me.

I came across to this song while auto playing my youtube. I know that this song is quite outdated but kudos to whoever created this song I'm very thankful.

The third one is Esok Belum Tiba by Nastia ft Liyana Fizi


Okay this song was forcely recommended by apis yang aku suruh dengar lagu fav aku dia tak dengar lagi tapi dia paksa aku dengar lagu ni.

It does bring a deep messages and I don't know why it doesn't being airplayed on radio.

Okay that's all. Give me five kalau lagu fav korang sama dgn lagu fav aku. Till next time!


Another chance?
| 00:00 | 0 comment(s)



It’s been a while. I wish when I come back here I am a stronger person.

 I guess I’m still a fragile trying to find her way back to the past when she scared nothing to be outspoken, saying what her want, write what’s in her mind. 

I guess I’m back being an introverted with scattered identity like I was 11 years ago. My life is a mess and I thought I found person to lean on, but I’m still crying alone at night. 

People thought being independent is simply not budging other, focusing on her life and handling prob on her own way. 

(Literally crying and ruining my night skincare routine).

 But my terms of being independent and matured is simply not having anyone by my side.

 But now tadaa I got u backkkkk my blog thank you for waiting for me!